I am so happy to finally announce it here! Parker and I expecting our first baby this coming October! I’m 15 weeks and counting, and according to my midwives, everything looks as healthy and perfect as can be. Yeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, so details: Remember when I posted this at the beginning of the year saying that one of my goals for 2014 was to have a baby? Well, just a couple weeks later I got pregnant! I was hoping I was pregnant when I attended Alt Summit and took all the necessary precautions just in case such as avoiding the millimeter wave scanner at the airport (FYI they just let you through without any screening if you say you’re pregnant. No pat down or nothin‘…), I didn’t have even a sip of alcohol at any of the parties, and even went cold turkey on my coffee habit and have been opting for decaf instead ever since. All totally overkill I‘m sure, but I just wanted to be extra-super careful. I had finally decided I wanted a baby, I wasn’t going to do anything that might ruin that. I still had to wait a couple of weeks to test, but when I did, the test starting showing that second pink line before I could even get out of the bathroom.
Parker was home sick that day (with The Man Cold), laying in bed watching a movie, and I didn’t tell him that I was going to take the test…just in case it turned out I wasn’t, I didn’t want a big buildup beforehand. But I walked into the bedroom afterward, holding the test and grinning like a goof, and, with a tiny hint of a goofy grin on his face too he asked, “What?…” and I just kept looking at the test, and then looking at him, and he kept asking me, “What? What does it say?” And finally I said, “I think I’m pregnant!” To which he replied, “You think you’re pregnant?” And I said “Well, look at this! The second line certainly looks like it’s there. I’m pretty sure I’m pregnant!” And then, taking nearly all the fun out of the moment, he asked why in the world I didn’t just buy the digital read-out tests that either say pregnant or not pregnant, and I said these were on sale and he said this was not the time to be concerned with saving three dollars. Touché. But as we had this conversation and weren’t paying attention, the second line indicating pregnant kept getting darker and darker to the point there was no denying it. Pregnant!
I knew I was pregnant though. In the days leading up to the test, and especially the day of, I felt an overwhelming exhaustion that I had never experienced before. I remember being at a stoplight in the car and feeling so tired (for absolutely no reason) that I could fall asleep right then and there if I wanted to. I thought to myself, “Ooooh, I’m definitely pregnant.”
Oh, but back to finding out. Once we finally knew for sure, a lot of happy smiles and kisses ensued WHICH may not have been the smartest idea since, likeI said, Parker was at home sick with a cold. And though I usually have an immune system like a ninja (I never get sick!), I forgot that when your body is trying to make a baby, your immunity is much lower than normal, and of course I got sick with a cold too. Oh well.
So how have I been feeling? Great! For the most part. My energy isn’t what it used to be, and I find myslef getting worn out more easily. Since entering the second trimester though, I have found I am much more energetic than the first. The lethargy is mostly gone (one of the reasons I haven’t been blogging as much these past few months; another reason is because it’s so hard for me to keep secrets and I’ve wanted to share the news for so long!). I had one week of nausea and morning sickness. And then, miraculously, it went away. I have so much empathy though for women that have morning sickness for months. That mess is no joke! I remember going through the grocery store and even looking at most foods made my stomach turn. Or I could tell just by looking at certain foods if they would give me heartburn. I ate mostly small meals of cutie oranges (lots and lots of cuties…), crackers, babybell cheese, and yogurt. Pregnancy tapas, as I called it. I read this post at some point during that week and felt like it was the best advice ever. I went to the grocery store immediately after to stock up on those items I just mentioned and stopped feeling guilty for not wanting to cook or eat regular meals. But then it all went away only a week later, and for the most part I have had a very easy pregnancy so far. Not even a whole lot of exhaustion like those first few weeks. Although, given the chance for an afternoon nap, I can zonk out cold for a good two hours, no questions asked. :)
Other symptoms I’ve had? For a little while I would find myself wide awake in the middle of the night, sometimes for no reason and sometimes because I was absolutely starving. Like, the kind of hunger I’ve only ever felt before while running a marathon. It’s primal hunger that’s rooted in the deepest pit of your stomach where need true sustenance is needed, not just a little snack. Not the kind where you find yourself awake and like, hmm I forgot about those cookies we have, I think I’ll sneak a few. No, it’s like, “OMG I could eat a steak right now and if I don’t get something in my belly soon, I am seriously going to FRRRREAK OUT.” I tried to just go back to sleep several times, thinking, “Why am I hungry? I shouldn’t be hungry. Just try to sleep.” But soon realized that resistance is futile when dealing with middle-of-the-night pregnancy hunger pangs. So, I found myself making mini-meals in the dark (usually egg salad on toast or cereal – or both!), and then would immediately fall back asleep after I had eaten a sufficient amount. It was a good lesson in listening to my body. Give that baby what it needs! That hasn’t happened in a few weeks though, and thankfully I’ve been getting lots of good sleep lately. Some weird dreams though, which I’ve heard are prone during pregnancy too. :)
Any cravings? Okay, so I thought you weren’t supposed to get cravings until a lot later, but I was walking through the grocery store about a month ago and suddenly I saw pimento-stuffed green olives and lord have mercy, my mouth started watering so bad I thought I might drool all over myself. It took everything I had not to open the jar right then and there and start shoveling olives into my mouth. It was the STRANGEST thing! Everything in my body was drawn to those olives and I just had to have them. Weird, right?! (Even writing this now, my mouth starts watering at the thought of them. What does it mean?!)
Are we going to find out the gender? Heck yes!! I don’t have the patience of those parents who like to be surprised. I want to know! We still have about a month before we find out, and Parker refuses to discuss names until we know if we’re discussing names for a boy or a girl, but of course I already have a list for both. I’m also excited to decorate a nursery, though I will admit I‘m feeling overwhelmed at all the stuff we’re going to need to buy (strollers – plural! – a car seat, a crib, cloth diapers and all that entails, breast feeding stuff, the list keeps growing). Cup of Jo has a great list of only the things she says you need, but it’s still SO MUCH!! And all I’ve bought so far is a tiny pair of shoes, gender neutral (though I might add tiny flower clips if it’s a girl because I won’t be able to help myself), that I can’t wait to put tiny feet in. :)
What else? We had an ultrasound around week 10 and got to see our baby. What a trip! I mean, you see women getting ultrasounds on TV and hear about it all the time, but when you’re the one with your pants unzipped and the tech feeling around your belly with the wand, it becomes a whole different thing. When the image first appeared on the screen, you could see clear as day, there was our baby. Head, torso, arms, legs, and my favorite – little baby butt cheeks! (Squeal!!) It wasn’t like that Friend’s episode where Rachel pretends to see her baby on the screen and be touched, but really she has no idea what she’s looking at. No, for us, the baby was in perfect position to be seen for the first time and we were kind of mesmerized. And I cried, which surprised me.
This past Friday, Parker and I had an appointment with one of our midwives and got to hear the heartbeat again, to which I felt relief that there’s actually still a baby in there. For weeks, I’ve felt totally normal and find myself wondering, “Is it possible to have a miscarriage and not know? What if I’m not pregnant anymore?” but hearing the heartbeat again made me happy. Our baby is still in there! Growing stronger and bigger every day. And my midwife said it’s totally normal to feel that way, especially for first-timers since the time between feeling nauseous and feeling the baby kick can be several months and you can feel totally normal in between.
I find myself suddenly motivated to exercise and have been working out consistently, which feels awesome. For the first three months, I just couldn’t muster the energy or motivation for much activity. And even though I wasn’t nauseous, I also wasn’t psyched about eating healthy foods either, which isn’t like me. I always thought when I got pregnant I would eat KALE morning, noon, and night to help grow a strong and healthy baby. But…that was just not possible in the first trimester. Pizza was like, freaking necessary a lot of nights. I’ve been looking forward to eating healthy, clean foods again though so that feels good. My “bump” so far just looks like I’ve let myself go and can’t suck in my stomach anymore (maybe that’s the reason behind my sudden motivation to exercise, actually….) but my midwife assured me that no, that is indeed my uterus growing and pushing out my stomach and I’m not just fat (though that’s what it feels like, especially since my pants are starting to get tight!). I’ll be happy to get to the point where it’s obvious that there’s a baby in there :)
Oh, and I can’t forget to mention Parker, my beloved. He’s been amazing and so supportive. He gives me a break when I’m hard on myself and can’t do as much as I feel like I should be able to. He just brushes off my self loathing and says, “Relax, you’re pregnant. All you need to do is grow our baby.” I couldn’t have chosen a better man to raise a family with. He is the best.
I’m so excited! Sorry for this LONG post, but this being my first pregnancy and all, I want to remember everything. I know how unique this time is – never again will I be able to sit and contemplate pregnancy in peace and quiet, for unlimited amounts of time, and relish the unknown and anticipation. Next time around (knock on wood), there will be a toddler running around and I may not get to savor it like I can now. Thanks for indulging me! I’m really excited to share everything here with you guys!
Tell me: Anyone else out there pregnant? Any moms remember this time in the early stages? I love hearing about everyones’ stories and find that every mom has a completely unique experience.